dear jacs,
happy birthday bestest of best friends. I wish we could be together to celebrate but I'll sure have a shot of vodka to commemorate the day. I miss you like crazy especially since this is the only way I can talk to you.
I was thinking about you a lot the other day. my friend christina's son had a friend who committed suicide a few weeks ago so she's been trying to help him cope and was asking me how I managed. it was hard to put into words how I dealt with this especially since your circumstances were different and I'm much older than her son (he's only eleven, poor thing) but I told her about this blog and how much it helps to still talk to you. sure it still hurts but maybe a little less than if I didn't have this outlet.
in other news, I wrote a book! well...almost. it still needs finishing and major revision/editing (think you might want the job?) but it's there and I did it! that's all that's really important. I know if you could you'd read it and tell me it's wonderful and then suggest some brilliant ways to make it even better. god I miss you like crazy. I promise I'll write again soon whether from my itouch or from a few stolen moments on my work computer.
love you, friend
love, jens
